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I am an ordinary girl who came to Bangalore looking for a job about 10 years ago. After some struggle and help from a friend, I landed a decent IT job. Life unfolded, and I was made to marry the boy of my parents choice. I wasn't supposed to refuse as I was told I "don’t have the desirable looks expected of a North Indian girl." After some months of marriage, things turned for the better and my daughter came as a blessing. Since then I have been a happy but insanely busy, an almost single mom rushing against time to finish errands to keep a balance between work and home. Amidst this, I felt a lump in my left breast (without any other symptoms). The biopsy reports confirmed carcinoma of the breast. I was the first to receive the news from my doctor. The fear of going away from my daughter gave me the strength to fight this. At that point, I wanted to do everything to increase my chances of survival.  I want to live as long as possible for my daughter. I even decided to go ...

  Wish I could turn back time, when you were just mine When the smiles were real wish I could seal Wish this love could grew and I wish it was true I didn’t complain when it was not perfect, is this why you got detached? What made it easy for you to go, won’t you let me know I was trying to be a good mom and a wife Was it a mistake that my heart is scarred for life I was confined within the house making sure you come back to a loving home When you were making love didn’t it strike you I was alone How did you tell her that you love her, did I not love you didn’t you see me here How did you gave her my right, did you not see I gave you my heart and soul and craved for you every night Didn’t it jolted you when she came near,  Did you love her so much, that my voice you couldn’t hear Didn’t  your heart reminded of your wife for whom you were life All I ever wanted was your love, it will not be perfect I knew, just wanted it to be true For the days I have may be few.

  Just got off the phone with a very senior person from my company, who acknowledged my dedication and contribution to my work so far. My credibility in the team is still intact, and I am still an asset, even though I had to avail of certain work flexibility. While I am little overwhelmed, this conversation was just what I wanted at this moment, when I was losing my self-confidence to be able to work and just be what I was before being diagnosed with Cancer. losing my self-confidence to be able to work just be what I was before being diagnosed with Cancer. Yes as intimidating as the 'C' word may sound, your mental health too gets affected. While doctors are mostly trying to keep you physically well during the time of treatment. Definitely, the road to treat cancer is a long and difficult one, involving encounters with the dreadful truths about the disease coming from doctors, things you read or the people and situations you face. It makes it taxing, both physically and emotiona...

How I hated the thought of marrying the prospect my parents had decided for me. Argued for different reasons, because he didn’t have much qualities I wanted in my husband. But like most of Indians girls do, I too married the man of my parents surrendering myself to the destiny. We argued each day for all valid and not so valid reasons. I didn’t like the way he would park things for later and he didn’t like why I wanted things to happen there and then.  He never praised whatsoever I did, cooked or arranged. He never wished to celebrate anniversary or birthday. Always escaped from planning or gifting, as we didn’t have much money to spare and he said he is not good at deciding things.This continued until I found he had an affair before marriage I didn’t know. When confronted, he didn’t to confess or explain, making things only difficult.  Things changed for good when our daughter was born, the best things which could happen to us at the time. All was going for good, jobs change...

We say rather than celebrating on a special day , everyday should be like Mother's Day, Father's Day or Valentine's Day.. and that these are just created to make business by companies like Archies and hallmark. But today I feel, they already knew that lives are going to be too busy to even remember your loved ones so at least these days will remind us and we show our love to them, because we don't do it everyday.. it is true that Love can only be felt but not truly until expressed in words and gestures..  Spend time with your loved ones, you mean world to them.. express love and don't hide behind your excuses.. if you really love someone you don't have to take out time, you make time to be with them.. 

Why these barbaric monsters not burnt alive after cutting off their genitals.. what will really wake up the judiciary or government or just humanity in them that they dare to punish these barbarians in the way they deserve.. simply putting them behind bars and leave the women and girls wishing them to be hanged doesn't serve the purpose.. What is stopping the powerful ones in taking an action which can shake them with horror..  Laws for rapists can't be made with a feeling of humanity in the mind of law makers because the ones who rape are not humans themselves.. Humans can't be so cruel... Which incident will be that rare incident which will trigger the much needed changes in the obsolete  laws... it didn't trigger when a young lady was brutally raped and almost murdered .. we just called her Nirbhaya and kept hearing about a new victim each day without making the offenders realise how heinous their act was, prison is just giving them a safer place to stay and ...

In Bangalore for little more than 7 years now, but it feels like home to me more than the place I belonged. Spent first 24 years of my life at a place where I was made to feel aloof and dejected  because I didn't look like one among them or didn't speak their local dialect but it is part of my identity that I belong there... When I moved here, it gave me all chances and respect I always needed to build my own identity full of confidence without making me feel that I don't belong here. Even for my days of struggle I feel proud about myself because not everyone can survive that phase.. but the spirit of this city kept me going. Bangalore a few years back already had sufficient people to put itself on the world map for all good reasons. Anyone who got added to this folk just made it populous and usually this chunk complains about Bangalore more than others.And I want to tell them loud and clear "Respect it or leave it". I am no exception, and so many of...